hipokrit.

sometimes, the truth's hurts.

klau xpaham,

kadang2, kebenaran ni menyaketkan bukan?

and i'm still smiling.

:)

right?

mama mama.

aku kurang mood untuk menulis blog dalam english. so, sama ade aku tulis sume full malay ke atau rojak ke tak kesah la eyh. hm.

tadi pegi jalan2 dengan family. aiceyh dengan sape lagi kalau time takde duet ni eheh. adik aku nak pegi pesta buku kat danga city mall tu. kitorang pun pegilah. agak murah la aku tengok. buku2 latihan semua die jual around Rm1.50-Rm3 gitu lah. adik aku pun semangat amik je buku ape die suke. =.= aku pun menyemak sekali la tengok2 buku latihan kimia bio. banyak terlupa basic ar aku takot pulak haha. terjumpa abang farah yasmin jual merchandise upin ipin wahaha comel betol. aku tak tegur ar die xkenal kan buat malu je nanti.

aku teringat time aku sekolah dulu2. eceyh. dulu mase aku form1-2 aku mmg kureng pandai ar kat sekolah. sains da nak fail. math dok c je keje wahahah aku ngaku tau. subjek best aku bm je ar sbb cikgu best kehkeh. buku latihan pun aku xpandang dulu.

da stat form3 barula ade kesedaran ar nak belajar betol2 sume kan. da semangat ar nak beli buku2 latihan sume. mak aku nak aku pandai, tapi bile ajak beli buku, banyak alasan die. cakap takde duet padahal baru gaji tuh =.=. aku paksa ar jugak beli. bile result aku da stat gempak mak aku pun cam dah :O wahhaaa. terus tiap kali aku nak beli buku die bagi. ape je mak aku ni.

ni bile tang adik aku punye turn, mak aku lagi suruh beli buku. takpun die suruh abeskan buku latihan tu cepat2. haha. die takot result suam2 kuku dak2 asrama batch aku kena kt adik aku plak. aku tak nyindir tau. ni mak aku punye opinion. hehehh

nak beli novel tadi, tapi diskaun takat 10% baek aku beli kt badan. same jugak. ceyh.

da mule sebok list barang2 yang nak kena bawak nnt. banyak sungguh sampai takot aku peker nak bawak nnt mcm mane. =.=

26/5

keluar dating. XD
gn has pja gn ieka.

naek keta pja.
agak seram ar sbb bunyi2 tu aku dok diam2 je heheh
pja pun suke buat corner mengancam wahahaha

beshhhh. kitorang pegi sutera mall sbb pja gn has nk shopping2 gitu.
hahha.
tekejut la gua dorang nk shoping haha.
disebabkan aku takde duet takat aim aim jela baju kasut aku minat.
siapp, aku da ade duet aku borong wahaha

da penat teman dorang pegila maen ikan
ikan gigit2 kaki tuh haha.
first time aku masokkn kaki kt dalam kolam (kolam eyh?)
terus menjerit kegelian ahahaha.
xbole blah.
da lelame tu aku wat derk masok jela.
ehsan orang blanje tu jangan dipersiakan wahaha

pastu pegi PM sbb aku gn ieka da merengek lapo XD
makan mcd.
ehsan orang lg ni tu aku makan sopan2 waahah.
tu pun mcm nk tersembur dengar has crite psl cikgu die yg ajar tp tengok siling.
mmg xbole blah wahaha.

overall mmg best.
da lame kite xkuar bersama eceyhh haha.
thanks guys.

p/s:to pja, aku tunggu. kihkihkihkihkih (mengilai doh wahahah)

.

saya da buat keputusan. saya takkan mengalah.

saya sayangkan awak. saya sayangkan hubungan ni.

tak mungkin saya bole carik pengganti lain dalam sekelip mata.

saya hanya insan biasa. banyak kekurangan diri.

cuma awak seorang yang terima saya seadanya.

dan saya bersyukur dipertemukan dengan awak.

saya akan cuba baiki hubungan ni semula.

walaupun kite akan berjauhan nanti, insyaAllah saya akan terus setia dengan awak.

saya hargai awak di samping saya.

insyaAllah, jika diizinkan, saya akan terus bersama awak.

ai shi teru :)

p/s: i'm back to my oldself thanks to my friends. even korang xtau problem aku, i'm glad i have you all by my side. thanks.

crying.

nak eja crying pn jd criying.
merepek.

hm.
da lame xnanges.
yela konon da matang ar da nk 18.
da xnk nanges2 ni.
tapi sejak 2-3 ari ni saya jadi emo tlbeyh plak.
sume psl die.
ke bendera merah da nk naek ni?
haih ntahla labu.

penin ar.
mmg gile depressed.

ape punca nii

salah saya sebab hulur persahabatan 3taun dulu yang cume hidup segan mati xmau ke?
salah saya sebab sayangkan die sepenuh hati ke?
salah saya sebab buat die berubah ke?

haih.
saya buntu.

saya tau awak takkan baca blog saya. tapi takpe saya tak kesah. saya paham awak sebok. maafkan saya. semua benda yang jadi kat awak saya puncanya. saya tak mintak banyak. hanya sayang dan perhatian sikit je. kalau betol lah takde ruang lagi untuk saya, saya rela pergi. dan saya pun tak dapat buat apa-apa. awak tak salah langsung, semua puncanye saya. tapi sungguh, awak lelaki yang betol2 bahagiakan saya. walau apapepun, saya tetap sayangkan awak.

p/s: saya mintak tolong. janganlah tanye pape kat saya atau die oke? biarlah semuanya rahsia. terima kasih kerana mengambil berat.

lepaskan.

so,
entri hari ni aku nk cite psl sorang mamat ni.
bukan abang aku la haha.

die baru jugakla kat skola aku.
kt kelas aku specifically.
aku tak tau ar kenape kn,
sejak 1st day tuh, aku mcm xley btol tengok muke die.
die xla xnsem, die oke arr.

bile da lelame knal die, baru la aku tau kenapa aku xsuke die hoho
perangai die kan urghhhh
nak wat aku vomit tau tak.
jarang ar jumpa lelaki perangai cm die.

die suke berlagak la.
berlagak gune ayat sindiran die.
salah 1 contoh ayat die mcm ni ar

"ek eleyh pmr 7a tp teruk jgk exam ko aku tgk. bek dpt 3-4a je gitu"

perghhh
tau ar ex samura kan adoiii
tak sedar2 tu da keluar samura nak perasann

sampaikan xngaku skola dua tu sekolah die.
eeee bajet arr kauuu akuu geli siyakk
pastu time blaja especially math ar,
da la muke selamba datang sebelah aku konon xnampak blackboard.
pastu memekak cakap xgune ar blaja math ni, da bsar bukan gune pn bla3.
grrr

paling aku tak bole lupe ar ko cakap dengan aku.
eyh x x ko sms aku.
mcm ni :

"weh, ko ade mtk biasiswa mara ke jpa x?"

"knp?"

"tanye je. alah kalau ko mintak mmg xkan dpt ar klau tgk result ko tuh"

b***. ko pndg rndh aku.
"aku mintak ar. da pegi inteview pun."

"ouh. aku da sambung blaja da ni. japan programme tajaan mara gak."

mmg tgh mls gile nk lyn ko time ni,
"oh yeke?"

lepas tu bile aku cakap aku xdpt mara tuh,
ko selambe je ckp kt aku mcm ni an

"kan aku da cakap gn ko, ko xkan dpt punye. kalau ko straight a xpe ar jgk"

abes ko bajet ko straight a ke hah. ko same je gn aku kn siyooot
"da xde rezeki nk wt cane. xsmestinye org kire a je da bole dpt."

padahal ko punye b tu lg xbole blah dr aku tau x.
kuangasam.
aku sabo je setaun 1 kelas gn ko.
aku memang tak paham ar kenapa ko suke carik psal gn aku.
erghh

ni mcm2 aku dgr psl ko mase ko kt samura dlu.
huh.
patutla keluar.
bajeet lebihh.

papepun good luck ar ko.
aku maki2 pun bknnye aku bwk sampai mati.

mmg pantang orang carik psl rendahkan maruah aku. ingat ko sape hah? grrr

hm.

terasa mcm nak masok kolej swasta la.

MSU ke, TAYLORS ke, CUCHS ke.

mahal mmg mahal.

tapi ade pnjaman mara kan.

klau aku bole excel kat situ, xyah byr pape da.

hmm.

camne ek?

27/6

aku pegi further study on that day; 27/6
mcm bontot seyh tarekh die.
esoknye birthday aku. grrr

semua tau kot, aku dapat uitm penang.
and sekarang aku tengah nk carik idea.
untuk wat rayuan nak tukar campus.
ke shah alam or mane2 la campus terdekat dr penang.

i don't think i can survive there.
too far.
aku ni bolelah anak mama jugak.
kalau aku pegi penang, likely my family bole datang visit like once evry 2 or 3 months.
urghhhh

and memandangkan cuti sem matrik gn U laen, (kot)
maken susahla nak jumpa abang sayang aku huuu

tapi, kalau tak dapat tukar jugak, takpelah.
rase thrilled la jgk kan pegi blaja jauh2 ni hehe.

so, just wait n see sajela.
and currently i'm writing the letter.
ayat mcm taek. da lupe nk tulis ayat skema
duhhh -.-

um.

sket je post ari ni.


berat da naekk !!


ni la akibatnye dok umaa mkn tdo on9 sajeee.

ehehh

MARA

copy ayt pja huahuahua

i didnt get mara scholarship.
but ieka did.
and she was a bit sad knowing that she must go there and leave me alone.
sighh.
well, i learnt to be a positive person.
maybe.

what goes around comes around.
we not always be on the top.
sometimes we need to accept that we fall.

...

the truth's hurts.

why?
why that thing must come back now?
now when you are gone to study,
while i'm stuck here heard all those stuff about you.

how?
how am i going to believe you if all the rumours bout you is true?
how do you think i can handle it?

we've already discussed bout this, and i decided to believe you.
but then,
when i just started to believe you,
the rumours spread again.

how am i supposed to deal with it?

you perfectly know i love you more than anything else,
and you said hundred times you do love me soo,
yet, you do this to me.

it hurts.

urghh

baru 3 ari, da mula rindu die.
nyaaaa.
tadi ptg cl die kejap, whoaaa sgt syok bile dgr sore die.
die cakap die rindu i tauu (blushed)
abes manis punye aku sengih hahha.

tadi kuar gn ema gn ieka crk beg,
aku bli 1 beg ni around rm40 la.
kat kedai tu nampak mmg lawa la siap konpius nk pilih kaler ape,
last2 aku amek grey.

bila da sampai rumah, try depan cemin nampak cm besar sgt la pulakk.
aiseyhhhh
ni yang maleh nii.
aku nk beg yg aku nmpk kt 1 website niii.
waaaa.
ade sape2 nak belikan x beg tuhhh?
for my birthday :D
plspls T.T

him.

:)

he's a hottie.

roibo.

blur2 plak ehe. :)


aqie,
i will always love you.
muahhxx
:)

pic.

ade pic aku cilok. ahaha gomenasai :D

miss this moment.

anis. to melaka. aku rindu ko jgk. :)

rahmah. to tangkak.
eheh dua2 peha besar XD
mine is slightly smaller i think :P

esya and yusra.
esya to gambang, yusra to tangkak.

sad :(

first of all, thanks to fee ! :D
i was touched when i saw my name among those who you missed the most.
ahah emo la pulee.

most of my good friends will be leaving me.
yusra, rahmah, esya, amy, anys, ezze, haziq and others.
bile bace mecet n komen dorang anta,
urghhh tak pepasal aer mata keluar ann.
lepas ni da susah nk jumpa.
lagi2 bln 6 nanti aku gerak g penang pulak.
:'(
btw, good luck guyss.
semoga berjaya di sana.
kalau free kite men 3G oke :D

hari ni last aku jumpa aqie sebelum die pegi matriks sok.
susah btol aku nak lepaskan die pegi.
yela,
die balek cuti ntah bile.
takat balek bermalam tu apelah sgt wahah.
tp takpe, aku nk die berjaya.
and i ought to let him go.
i will miss you damn much.
nanti ade jodoh kite kawen oke ! :)

p/s: next post aku letak pic mereka2 yg meninggalkan aku :(

i made up my mind.

finally.
100%.
i'm going to PENANG.

my mom doesnt mind though.
as long as i can transfer to uitm shah alam or wherever campus nearer.

so, my mind is at ease now.
hoyeahhh
and i need to stay at home until june.
jadi maid lagi la aku.

well, just finished Avalon High by Meg Cabot.
it was great.
romance,fear,suspense,entertaining.
haha.
i'd highly recommend it.

dissapointed.

akak syafiqah cakap,
semua course farmasi hanya ade kt uitm shah alam shj.
so, aku gn die pun da semangat2 ar ni.
da konpem ar knonnnye nk g shah alam tuh,
da berangan2 semua.

bile check mlm tadi, huh
jgn kate shah alam, selangor tu pun bole dikire dkt lg.

Sukacita dimaklumkan bahawa anda ditawarkan tempat untuk mengikuti program di UiTM:
Program: (PH110) Sepenuh Masa DIPLOMA FARMASI FARMASI
Kampus: P - UiTM Kampus Bukit Mertajam Semester: JULAI 2009
Sila datang mendaftar di tempat yang ditetapkan.
Tempat: UITM KAMPUS BUKIT MERTAJAM PERMATANG PASIR, 13500 PERMATANG PAUH
Tarikh: 27/6/2009 Masa: 8:30AM - 4:30PM

hah amek ko.
tau PERMATANG PAUH kt mne?
hah?
aku tengok je trus blur pker kt mane sbb jarang dgr.

da goggle baru aku tau.
kat PENANG.
huh.
punah hrpn tol.
adoi
so, skarang aku da xtau nk pegi mane.
klau nk g matrik, sempat plak kan aku nak pack barang.
hmm
sdeyhh

separated.

separated. oke. not break off.

my abang sayang will definitely going to matriks tangkak this coming monday.
i can't stop him since his mom urge him to soooo going to matriks.
i can't do anything.
so, after he left, those 2months before i'm going to uitm,
i will be lonely.
he can't keep accompanying me,
i told him to struggle hard if he can.

but he promised me,
if he can't adapt to live there or catch up the study,
he will be going home and futher his studies in Uitm.
it is his decision.

i will missing him.
badly.
oh nooo my tears wants to come out.

....

finally? maybe.

after days i've been busier thinking about my future,
which course i want to take,
and bla bla bla,
i made this decision more than half heartedly.

i am going to further my studies in Uitm for Diploma in Pharmacy.

yeahh. i know some of you may think that it is unwise for me to take dip,
because of my good results,
blablabla,
but i thought about it for a while and i agree with my family and my teachers,
that pursue my studies for dip is a good decision. better.

most of them who agreed with me said that,
it will be hard for me to apply pharmacy when i'm going to matrics,
as the competition will be a lot tougher.
and i might get course that are totally out of my future plan.
mcm apply pharmacy, but dapat engineering.
i'm fine with engineering if u ask me wahaha.
but i want pharmacy.

then cikgu rabiah said just go to Uitm,
since i am interested in pharmacy.
so that my future will not ruin wahaha merepek.
eleyhh tp aqie die suruh g matrik.
xaciii :D

i just need to confirm which campus of Uitm will be my next step.
if, i get Uitm segamat, i'm telling you i'm not going.
whahaah
i just wanna go if i get shah alam, which are their main campus.
:O
so, let see if i get that or not.

ouh ouhhh 2nd anniversary

yeayy.
today is our 2nd anniversary.
huhu.
surprised that this relationship can hold on to this long.
ape aku merepek haha.

just wanna say,
thanks aqie,
for loving me,
for taking care of me,
for faithful to me,
for sacrifice your own need to satisfied me,
for everything.

I LOVE YOU.
and i always do.
:)

intan ♥ aqie

forever, if we are meant to be together. forever.

hurm.

as far as i know,
many ex mrsm student got asasi in um or uiam.
even some of them who got only 4-5As in SPM got asasi sains hayat um?
whattheheck
do they still prefer to take mrsm student than us?
why?
because they were commonly known as top students,
while we are just a regular students?
ouh mann.
look at the spm results la weyhhh not the school.

well, i'm not boycotting the students oke.
aku just xpuas ati gn care mereka2 memilih.
-.-

ignore the grammatical error, i told you before, i'm not good in english.

ceyhhh

i askes hasz to semak my upu result.
and surprisingly, i got DIPLOMA FARMASI UITM.
when hasz told me that, i was like
alaaaa ape ke hal diplomaa

so me, with ieka and rahmah got the same course and the same place. -.-
my abang sayang also got UITM for DIPLOMA PERAKAUNAN.
duhhh.
when we finally get the same place, we got the worst course.
no not worst, i'm trying to figure out what is the best word to explain it.
urm, terrifying? no. unneeded? no. urm. unwanted course? yeah. maybe.
bkan same mksd ke unneeded gn unwanted? wahaha lantak la.

i don't have any choice now.
seems like i need to go to matriculation then.
yeah, NEED and not WANT ahahaha