i know i should.

last thursday, aqie has pja n others went out to cs and other places. i didnt want to go coz i thought my presence there would be, u know, uncomfortable. i'm not close enough to them except for aqie(of coursee duhh), raje has n pja. close enough :D

but then, last night when aqie called me and told me bout what u guys were doing and who were coming, i was surprised to know that ***** was there. obviously surprised. its like, when aqie called out his name, i was like "haaaaa, ***** ade? alaaa nape xcakapp" haha rude isnt it. but u know i cant hide my expression. i've been hoping yang we all akan bjmpa kt memane la. but no luck, so far.

i should have get over with him years agooo. we've been together for just what? half a year damn it. why did i always think about him? this is so wrong, i know that. its not like we were together for 10 years and suddenly break things up. haihhhh.

i've told this to some of my friends i think, i still talks bout him sometimes.
i've realised it after a while and i know why he was still in my mind.

you know, he was my first love. urghhhhh
at first, we didnt broke up bcause i cheated on him, or he cheated on me or whatever. he wants to break off bcause my parents told me to stop having a relationship with him. so, i thought that we could get back together you know, because he says so. =.= and i'm too naive for believing in him.

then, after some time, aqie told me, that ***** told him, or should i say, their friends? that he broke up with me not bcause of my parents, but bcause he wanted to. so i thought that i was too boring for him, too ugly, not pretty to be beside him. i dont know. but, deep inside my heart, i know that he was telling those stories bcause he was protecting his image. his ego. man's ego. duhhh

when we're together, it felt so real. you know, his love for me, when we were chatting at night, laugh, hang out together, all those things made me happy and they were my wonderful memories with him. i loved his voice when he was talking to me. i love eveything about him. i loved him so much at that time and that the end-of-relationship was too hard for me to handle. i cried every night that week, i missed him badly and one at a time, i picked up my phone to called him, but i put it back. apekah aku merepek? hmm

sampai sekarang, i still remember where we first met, dating, talks on the phone. most of it is still kept in my mind. i didnt dare to forget it because he was my first love. i know i'm in the bad side as i already have a boyfriend right now, but i cant resist this feelings when it comes.

after my dad my bro n aqie, he is the 4th guy i loved so much in my life. err no, was.

i still want to know the truth though, why he wanted to broke up at that time. hmm.

i know i should get rid of him. get over with him. probably.

(sadly)i just hope he will be happy in his life. goodbye my ex lover, i didnt dare to fall in love with you again. it hurts.

lame xmenulis. xde mood nk tulis dlm english. setakat selit 2-3 ayt tu bole la. hmmm. exam ari tu pada aku mcm cukup2 mkn saje ntok a. ntahla. adela 2-3 sbjek tu aku mcm konpem dpt a. yang laen? ish3.

semalam keluar pegi sekola pegi jj pegi cs pegi uda.
bjln sakan dr pg smpi mlm.
best la jugak.
tp geram pun ade gak gn minah sorang ni.
tapi xpela da lepas, mls nk pikir.

cuti ni mcm xcuti la aku rase.
aishh.
risau sem3. mdm ckp sem3 is triple harder than the last 2 sem. klau skrg ni pn da semput blaja, apetah lg sem dpn. its a good thing yang sem dpn math dgn kimia da xdde.

skandal terbaru dkt uitm, bdk mpp.
hohahahhahaahaha
klas aku lagi.
tapi benda ni xla kecoh mane pun, takat org rpt gn aku je yg tau.
sape2 yg prasan ape mamat ni post kt fb taula dorg.
keh3.
mcm satu contoh,
dkt mutiara, aku dipanggil kak.chik. eh ceh. tp prangai lbeh kpd bongsu la hohahha.
ktorg pn bsing2 la gn k.long k.ngah sume dlm fb tu.
tetiba die menyelit, die nk jd bang cik XDXD
mmg xbole blah gle laa.
aku sruh jd bg long, die xnk. nk bg cik jgk.
aduhaii comel btol. hohahahaha.

lagi 1, die suke pg name aku.
jap2 tenot, jp2 tenot.
tiap kali die pgl je, membe aku sume da tesengih2.
cehh.
tapi, aku suke name tu.
mcm manje comel gtu kn XDXD

hmm
ptt cuti smpi bln 7.
tapi balek awl sbb jd fasi ntok bdk bru.
aku dpt tau ade membe adek aku dpt tmpt aku.
siapla korg aku jd fasi hohhahahahahahhaaah (evil laugh)

:D

we, the wings of love, giving you shelter from the storm,
your smile is our belief,
and we will share all of your joys and sorrow together,

we, the wings of love, giving you shelter from the storm,
your happiness is what we wish for,
together, we build a paradise that is yours....


emo secare tiba2 di malam jumaat.

i miss someone. where are you?
:(

saya xpaham dan xbole nak paham.

kenapa ya?
kenapa rmi orang mcm pandang jelik dan hina dengan diploma?
saya xpaham laa.
teruk sangat ke amik diploma ni?
hina sangat ke?
orang yang amek diploma ni sume bodoh2 ke?
sampaikan dgr diploma je terus pandang ke tepi.
mcm taboo gler la diploma ni.

kalau hina sgt, kenapa ramai je bdk straight A amek diplomaa?
kenapa ade je orang yang kaya, yg mampu msok kolej swasta amek foundation nak amek diploma ni?
kenapa ramai je yang dpt dekan ntok course2 diploma ni?
kenapa ramai je yg xdpt score well sgt mse kt skola, result dorang gempak gle bile da masok u? mcm minachi tu.(you know who you are XD compliment ni haha)

dari sem1 saya amek diploma ni, sampaila sekrang, saya xbole nak paham.
selalu saya pikir, kenapa ye?

entahla.
kadang2 saya terasa hati dengan mereka2 yang merendah2kn diploma ni.
lagi2 kalau mereka tu kwn. ohhhh mmg tajam.

kalau diploma ni hina sangat, xdenye government tu nak established kn diploma ni.

tolongla. cume tahun dan ape ilmu yg kite dpt tu je yg membezakan kite. yg laen same jee.
janganla rase mcm tinggi sgt bila awak masok matrik ke asasi ke foundation ke n habis awal trus smbung dgree.

hm
btw, tadi exam anatomy. exam yang aku sangka the most challenging exam beside math n chem. tp alhamdulillah dpt jwp. agak xsangka la soalan die sgt jauh beza dgn soalan past year. tgk soalan past year buat aku cuak tu.

tinggal lg 2 paper. hope i can do well for both paper. tgh berusaha nak naikkn cgpa this sem. pray for me oke.

sampai jb 9th mei. kite enjoyyy

p/s: jgn terasa ye mereka yg amek diploma. kite same jee. ni sekadar luahan perasaan. tidak ade kena mengena dgn course same ataupn laen. XD

yahhhh tetiba nk post entri bile bce jah pye keh3.

sekarang di uitm aku femes dipanggil tenot. :D
sampaikan xde benda nak ckp pun, setakat panggil 'tenot~~' pun dorg cm rase puas gile hohahahah
lgpun, nickname tu mcm manje kn, kehkeh

hari tu presentation bel ntok mrkh speaking, aku wt crita psl aqie n me.
cewahhh. gedik gle.
hahah klau x sbanrnye aku nk cabut je xnk wt speaking nii.. xde idea lgsg.
tp kwn2 aku yg gtl gedik2 sume suh buat psl aku gn aqie, aku pn buat laaa.
terpaksa menebalkn muka.
hahhh

final minggu depan.
1 hape pun xprepare lg.
mcm jah la jgk.

ctu- byk gle. bru bce smpi bb3. tu pn boring gle. da la tebal =.=

microbe- alhamdulillah la. carry mark aku insyaAllah oke memandgkn tiap2 quiz n test highest. bole tlg cover math aku T.T

anatomy- ohh mcm mane nk hfl 14 body system dlm mase brape ari saje T.T lecture note tbal plak tu waaaaaaa

math- urghhh teruk. dpt b untok final pn da sgt bsyukur. test 1 je full marks. test laen ckup2 mkn je lulus =.=

liquid- xtau crita quiz n test. miss xbg balek pn mrkh. cehh. tp arap2 bole score la.

bel- ohhhhh tlglaa bg a klau x sem dpn hancurrrrrrrr

kimia- errrrr. kimia ni bolela kot. jap trun jap naek. arap2 oke.

takot2. mdm ckp sem3 sem4 lg ssh nk score sbb sbjek pharmacology n pharmacotheraphy sgt tough. lepas tu ade 3 lab sem dpn. ohhh tidakkk.

ouhhh tlg doakan aku ntok final oke. T.T

endless moment.

SUPER JUNIOR - ENDLESS MOMENT (translate)

Living in this cold world,
I forgot what was precious,
As I wandered through the dark streets,
I couldnt help but cry

For a very long time,
I've been waiting for you,
For someone who's just like me,
I want to give you everything
to fill up those lonely moment

My endless moment pray, for you

I cant envision myself without you,
without you,
I want us to be unaware
of the word 'separation' forever

Even a little smile from you,
bring me happiness,
I'll make a promise to you,
this isnt a dream

Many days will pass
and I'll still be yours
My shining moment, forever

There are times
when my hasty feeling cause trouble
So lets only remember the good memories..

I'll never desire anyone else but you...


crkla kt youtube, dgr. sedapp.

~its too good to be true if someone give this to me~
tapi, entah, takkan ada kot.

:)

ye tahniah tahniahhh

congrats to those yang da dapat result smlm.
xkiralah result mcm mane pun, kita, eh korang da wt yang terbaek kn.
yeahhh

lepas ni, pilih btol2 ape yang korang nak.
kalau x, nnt menyesal.

klau takot sgt, plih course based on your results first.
letak tu as your first choice.
then, bru plih yg korg minat.
yela, yang mtk course korang minat tu bknnye sket.
Uni skrang plak maken lame maken demand.
so, hati2 ye.

tapi, saya nasehatkn, ewahh saya plak.
haha.
okela aku nasehatkan, klau jenis yg cpt givup, ataupun jenis yg ssh nk tahan cbrn,
jadual pack, kena berkejar2, jgn amek matrik.
hoho aku ckp btol ni.
ni bkn sbb aku amek dip, nk suh korang amek jgk. x x.

1 sbbnye yg aku nmpk, sijil matrik 2 xlaku mase keje.
sgt xlaku.semua org ckp.
klau msok uni ntok further degree tu yela die tgk, tp ntok keje x.
klau kite tengok skrg, graduan uni ssh nk dpt keje kn.
so, kire sape2 yang ade sijil dip, lg mudah actually.
sbbnye, kalau ssh nk crk keje based on your degree, kite bole crk keje based on your dip cert dlu. keje skrg bknnye trus dpt high position in d company kn. sume mula dr bwh.

lg 1, klau la tetiba on the way korg tgh wt degree tetba ade something happen, kn da ssh. kite xtau mase dpn mcm mane. atleast xdpt nk abeskn degree, korg ade dip cert tu. xla mcm blur ajee.

tp, aku xnafikan la matrik ni cpt blaja cpt abes. aku pn pnah jgk nk msok matrik, menyesal xmasok matrik. tapi bile peker2 balek, tye2 lecturer, that feeling is slowly fading. ecewahhh. skrang ni pd aku, biarlah aku lmbt, aslkn aku xsshkn dri nnt.

jgn ckp aku ni diskriminasi plak. this is just my opinion. you are the one to decide.

smlm ade kempen derma drh kt uitm aku ni.
aku n the geng borak2 la gn doctor2 kt situ.
hensem kehkehkeh

eh back to the topic.
doc tu ckp, skrang rami bdk pndai2. tu of course la kn.
skrang nk mtk keje, gov ke swasta ke demand jgkk.
dorang plih org untuk jd their employee based on your cgpa first.
haaaaa.
kalau perempuan, atleast pun mst 3.7 n above.
lelaki pulak, 3.6 and above.
aku bru 3.6 T.T

so, kena strive harder ntok dpt good results.
lagi2 perempuann.

arasso? :D

alhamdulillahh

all my hardwork had been paid off. for this mid sem la. blum final.
i got highest in my batch for microbiology, 82 marks. dua org je dpt a. 50 failed. aku dengar rmai fail serammm.
pastu, i'm one of the highest for anatomy and microbiology n kimia. kimia ni quiz 2 je quiz 1 teruk. hohoooo.
alhamdulillahh.
budak2 pun da boring muke aku je trun amek hadiah.
keh3
kena struggle lebeh ntok final ni.
hwaiting. !!

super juni-OR!!!
XDXDD