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first, happy birthday to my lovely boyfriend puhahaha aqie.
may GOD bless you always, and i hope we will stay together till death.
Amin~~

secondly, my prob is the same as has prob. tapi not because of the same reason. same topic.
BESTFRIEND.
you know, sometimes i feel that i didnt have any bf at all. when we were hang out together, i always felt left out. i walked alone, thinking that maybe i shouldnt be there at all, because they sometimes didnt noticed me.

i hate that i'm crying because of this. but i do.
i've always tried to be the best for them. until my mom even called me 'lurus bendul' because of my friends. but i dont care. i always thought my friends are important to me. they chill up your life, sharing problems and others. but that was before. when we were still at school.

haih.
tolonglah jangan pikir saya tinggalkan awak, or saya pilih kawan, or whatever. because i don't. saya xajak awak keluar, that doesnt mean that i hate you. saya cume nak biarkan sume masalah tu setel dulu. saya xbenci awak, or saya xrase awak xdiperlukan. ramai orang nak kawan dgn awak. among our geng, i'm sure dorang lebih suka keluar dengan awak dari dengan saya. sebab saya ni boring, pendiam, xhappening sumelah.

tolonglah buat sikap pker negative awak tu. that's not good. believe me. i've been in that situation. and it will only make matters becoming worse. lantaklah english mcm LAP. huhh.

saya jadi pendengar yang baek untuk awak. sume masalah awak awak cite kt saya. saya bagi sokongan, even awak kadang2 degil xnak dengar. sampai saya marah baru awk dengar. tu pon awak da nak merajok. haihhh. bile pasal masalah saya, awak dgr nak x nak then awak ckp 'xpe, jgn pker sgt, nnt okelah'. fine, saya xkesah. saya tau awak banyak masalah, saya ade kawan laen ntok mtk pendapat so saya xnak susahkan awak.

sebelum saya pergi, saya cume nak hepi2 je. kite xtau mase depan mcm mane. mungkin kite jumpa lagi, mungkin kite x. so, tolonglah jangan buat saya macam ni. saya boleh jadi gile.

saya sayang semua kwn saya. i mean it. and if you love me back, i love you more. :)

p/s: result kuar sok. tapi da xde feeling nak dapat result. takot die extreme.