urghhh

tadi check pmohonan kolej.
excited bdebar2 sume ade.

then, tgk senarai name, most of my classmate dpt mutiara, ade 2-3 org dpt nr.
aku da pergh, apehal dak pharmacy sume die cmpak luar ni.
giler xacii.
tgk name aku, aku pun dpt mutiara jgk waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
xnk xnk mutiara xbest waaaaaaaaaaaa

susah tuuu dok mutiaraa.
mmg dpt kolej, tp mutiara kt luar uitm, bkn dlm.
nak kena naek bas lg.
bas tu plak jgn mimpi la nk tgk ksong.
bdk2 dr perda tu sume sesak mcm ape dlm bas.

haihhh
for those who do not know,
uitm penang ade dua blog akademik.
1 dlm uitm, 1 lg kt perda.
perda sgt jauh klau nk berjalan kaki.
tp die sediakan bas.
kalau bas ksong nak amek bdk kt perda,
bdk perda best, bdk mutiara xbest la.
tiap kali bas dtg je mst pnuh.
almt dtg kelas lmbt. adehhh

dlm uitm ade dua kolej je.
baiduri ntok siswi, zamrud ntok siswa.
budak ade 6k org, adoi2.
skrang ni ade 3 kolej tgh dlm pembinaan.
org ckp siap mgkn aku part3-4 gtu.
perghhhh

sdeyh btol.
org yg cop kad aktviti tu gle sket dr aku, bole dpt dduk dlm.
heyyyy x ke hanginnn

yeyyyyy

akhernyee dpt pn ksut tuh pewiiit

pnt2 pegi jj bkt indah, saiz 6 abes.
oke, fine g crk kt jj tebrau
pn xde jgk.

eeee mcm ape.
las2 tadi g jj bkt indah lntk je amek saiz 5.
da adjust tali sume fit je pn ksut tu.

kasut crocodile tu xla lawa mane,
but it is comfy.
sdp pakai.
jalan lelame pun xpenat tauuu
oh ye, bukan crocs oke, crocodile.

aku xde duet nak beli crocs mhl tuu.

:D

layout bru

T.T
akhernye,
dpt jgk aku tukar layout mcm nii.
T.T ouh terharuu

klau x keje dok usha blog org je tgk layout org haha.

lawa kn lwa kn?
:D

thx fee, syg u byk2 :D

tengtengteng

mood aku sukar diagak sejak cuti2 ni.
ehe
ade time stress menggila ade time hepi semcm.
den pn xphm.

minggu ni, i mean bln ni byk btol org kawenkn.
kakak kwn aku sume nk kawen, pdhl yg dok mgtl adik die kahkahkah

mama, akak nak kawen jgk bole? :D

p/s: to has, duhhh sure i do. gatal~ XDD

matrik =.=

oke, last week those who entered matric got their results rite?
and i was eager to know my friends result.
jadi minah kepoh.

the earliest person to told me his results, none other than aqie la of coz.
he told me he got 3.9
3.9????!! ya Allah, aku rase mcm nk ter tutttt ko tau.
dari syok2 tido pkul 10 lbeyh tu trus terbeliak mata aku bce msg die.
waduhhhh
when did he became this clever.
not that i'm looking down at him, tapi bile tengok time die study before and during exam, he just like byase2 je. carefree sungguh.
aku yang takot dok sruh die studi =.=''

his mom was of coz la too happy when she heard that. my family pn. (eheheheh)
then, i didnt know my other friend's result.

oh yeee, the other person, ni mmg da xpayh ckp laa.
one of my best fren got 4flat. rahmah la sape lg.
4flat??!!! duhhhhh
i didnt know how she studied. but i do know that she's work hard, stay up late until 4a.m to achieved this result.
so, although i'm a bit jealous, err okay sangat jealous, i congratulated her.
budak genius byaselarr

bila tengok result dorang,
i suddenly felt something.
you know, regret.
i admit that i'm a bit disappointed when aqie got his really excellent result that i know i dont have a chance of getting it. err phm x agk2? =.=''
but i'm happy for him. at least aku bole bergantung pd die la nnt kan kehkeh

i'm a bit regret that i didnt enter matriculation in the first place.
i should have try but i'm afraid of trying.
i'm afraid to urge myself to try and study there before making a decision to stay there or leave it.
regret haunts me, everyday.
to make things worse, my life had been miserable these few days,
i didnt get the peaceful life i used to get when i'm coming home.
geezz

but, its too late to realized it now right?
i cant do anything to change it, turn back time or whatever.
i need to face this. i choose this path by myself.
aduhai

ya Allah, permudahkan la urusanku.

blerghhhh

i forgot how long i didnt post in english.
somehow my english seems to deteriorate over time.
geezzz pharmaceuticals word comes outt =.='

i have headache, and a week of flu gn coughing. aiyooo when will it get better.
i wanna go out, but my money urge me not to do so.
haha only left bout rm5++
i dont want to touch my savings, duhhh cepat je habis nnt.

my life's kind of dull these past few days, so i dont have any story to share.
i miss my friends back there at uitm,
and my old friends here.
it seems like they have changed, you know, considerably.
but, i've changed too didnt i.

i'm not quite sure what to talk about with my old friends anymore.
we study at different places, meet diff people.
all story bout new friends, new scandal are bored to talk to.
its not like i dont like discussing it, you know, but not too often.
we just chat sometimes, say hii when are you going back home laugh laugh ect ect and then bye.
haihss.
how i really want things to go back the way it should before.
but, somehow i'm not regretting it.

i'm not in the mood.
arghhhhhhh
i need someone to cheer me up, honestlyy :(

ni gmbr baru den. haha lame xupload pic.

ade kate da kurg tembam. yeke?

*clapclap*

xpahammm.

adoi la makcik2 ni.

kalau da bjumpa kan, mulut tu mmg xbrenti nak kepoh2 kan.

xpaham sungguh.

ni mak cik sorang ni.

saya taula anak makcik tu dapat tajaan, belajar kt kolej swasta kt kl sana tuu, tempat mahal.

anak makcik pandai lagi kn.

saya tau semua tu.

saya da kenal anak makcik tu dr skola rendah lg.

da jd kawan baek da pun.

tp, kalau nak bandingkan dgn saya anak kawan makcik ni, alahai apela sangat kann.

makcik anggap saya biasa2 je, blaja uitm je, bkn um.

belajar takat kat penang, tempat kampung jeee. xbandar mcm kl tu.

amek dip je. dapat tajaan xpegi.

tapi janganlah tiap kali jumpa2 gn kwn2 mkcik, gn mk saya, mkcik nk kepoh2.

alahaii saya dengar mak saya cerita pun saya kecik ati, ape lagi la klau mak saya yang dok dengar ape mak cik ckp tu tiap2 minggu kot.

ish3.

lagi satu, jgnla cerita benda2 yang xade makcik oii.

makcik nak canang 1 malaysia ank makcik blaja kt sni setaun je apelah itulah inilah.

padahal yang saya tau, yang ank mkck sendiri bgtau saya, die blaja kt kolej mahal tu sampai degree.

saya pun tau sebb tajaan die tu mmg PIDN bkn PILN.

saya pun ade mtk jgk makcik.

saya bukan budak2 lagi nak ditarik ke sana kemari.

aish merepek plak.

walaupun saya belajar kt uitm tu je pn, saya bukan belajar main2.

saya ingat ape mkayah saya cakap. saya nak balas jasa dorang.

uitm tu pun bukan nye u xlaku.

kakaknye ank mkcik yang dapat tajaan tu pun belajar kt uitm jugak.

mak saya xdela plak nak kate ape2.

yela rezeki masing2.

haihzzz xpaham sungguh la makcik ni.

dari dulu kot mak saya dok cerita pasal makcik ni kt saya.

saya diamkan ajeee. sebab saya tau apela sgt saya ni nak banding gn ank makcik tu.

dr sekolah lagi saya xdpt nak lawan die. die 10a saya 9a je kan.

hmm yelah makcikk.

saya tau makcik bangga dgn ank mkcik tu, tp berpada2 la ye.

jgnla bangga sgt, smpai orang keliling pun jauh hati dengan makcik.

susah nanti.

nak cakap dgn ank makcik tu, alahai saya xkan menang lah.

kecewaaa

sape2 jelaa.