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mood aku sukar diagak sejak cuti2 ni.
ehe
ade time stress menggila ade time hepi semcm.
den pn xphm.

minggu ni, i mean bln ni byk btol org kawenkn.
kakak kwn aku sume nk kawen, pdhl yg dok mgtl adik die kahkahkah

mama, akak nak kawen jgk bole? :D

p/s: to has, duhhh sure i do. gatal~ XDD

matrik =.=

oke, last week those who entered matric got their results rite?
and i was eager to know my friends result.
jadi minah kepoh.

the earliest person to told me his results, none other than aqie la of coz.
he told me he got 3.9
3.9????!! ya Allah, aku rase mcm nk ter tutttt ko tau.
dari syok2 tido pkul 10 lbeyh tu trus terbeliak mata aku bce msg die.
waduhhhh
when did he became this clever.
not that i'm looking down at him, tapi bile tengok time die study before and during exam, he just like byase2 je. carefree sungguh.
aku yang takot dok sruh die studi =.=''

his mom was of coz la too happy when she heard that. my family pn. (eheheheh)
then, i didnt know my other friend's result.

oh yeee, the other person, ni mmg da xpayh ckp laa.
one of my best fren got 4flat. rahmah la sape lg.
4flat??!!! duhhhhh
i didnt know how she studied. but i do know that she's work hard, stay up late until 4a.m to achieved this result.
so, although i'm a bit jealous, err okay sangat jealous, i congratulated her.
budak genius byaselarr

bila tengok result dorang,
i suddenly felt something.
you know, regret.
i admit that i'm a bit disappointed when aqie got his really excellent result that i know i dont have a chance of getting it. err phm x agk2? =.=''
but i'm happy for him. at least aku bole bergantung pd die la nnt kan kehkeh

i'm a bit regret that i didnt enter matriculation in the first place.
i should have try but i'm afraid of trying.
i'm afraid to urge myself to try and study there before making a decision to stay there or leave it.
regret haunts me, everyday.
to make things worse, my life had been miserable these few days,
i didnt get the peaceful life i used to get when i'm coming home.
geezz

but, its too late to realized it now right?
i cant do anything to change it, turn back time or whatever.
i need to face this. i choose this path by myself.
aduhai

ya Allah, permudahkan la urusanku.

blerghhhh

i forgot how long i didnt post in english.
somehow my english seems to deteriorate over time.
geezzz pharmaceuticals word comes outt =.='

i have headache, and a week of flu gn coughing. aiyooo when will it get better.
i wanna go out, but my money urge me not to do so.
haha only left bout rm5++
i dont want to touch my savings, duhhh cepat je habis nnt.

my life's kind of dull these past few days, so i dont have any story to share.
i miss my friends back there at uitm,
and my old friends here.
it seems like they have changed, you know, considerably.
but, i've changed too didnt i.

i'm not quite sure what to talk about with my old friends anymore.
we study at different places, meet diff people.
all story bout new friends, new scandal are bored to talk to.
its not like i dont like discussing it, you know, but not too often.
we just chat sometimes, say hii when are you going back home laugh laugh ect ect and then bye.
haihss.
how i really want things to go back the way it should before.
but, somehow i'm not regretting it.

i'm not in the mood.
arghhhhhhh
i need someone to cheer me up, honestlyy :(

ni gmbr baru den. haha lame xupload pic.

ade kate da kurg tembam. yeke?

*clapclap*

xpahammm.

adoi la makcik2 ni.

kalau da bjumpa kan, mulut tu mmg xbrenti nak kepoh2 kan.

xpaham sungguh.

ni mak cik sorang ni.

saya taula anak makcik tu dapat tajaan, belajar kt kolej swasta kt kl sana tuu, tempat mahal.

anak makcik pandai lagi kn.

saya tau semua tu.

saya da kenal anak makcik tu dr skola rendah lg.

da jd kawan baek da pun.

tp, kalau nak bandingkan dgn saya anak kawan makcik ni, alahai apela sangat kann.

makcik anggap saya biasa2 je, blaja uitm je, bkn um.

belajar takat kat penang, tempat kampung jeee. xbandar mcm kl tu.

amek dip je. dapat tajaan xpegi.

tapi janganlah tiap kali jumpa2 gn kwn2 mkcik, gn mk saya, mkcik nk kepoh2.

alahaii saya dengar mak saya cerita pun saya kecik ati, ape lagi la klau mak saya yang dok dengar ape mak cik ckp tu tiap2 minggu kot.

ish3.

lagi satu, jgnla cerita benda2 yang xade makcik oii.

makcik nak canang 1 malaysia ank makcik blaja kt sni setaun je apelah itulah inilah.

padahal yang saya tau, yang ank mkck sendiri bgtau saya, die blaja kt kolej mahal tu sampai degree.

saya pun tau sebb tajaan die tu mmg PIDN bkn PILN.

saya pun ade mtk jgk makcik.

saya bukan budak2 lagi nak ditarik ke sana kemari.

aish merepek plak.

walaupun saya belajar kt uitm tu je pn, saya bukan belajar main2.

saya ingat ape mkayah saya cakap. saya nak balas jasa dorang.

uitm tu pun bukan nye u xlaku.

kakaknye ank mkcik yang dapat tajaan tu pun belajar kt uitm jugak.

mak saya xdela plak nak kate ape2.

yela rezeki masing2.

haihzzz xpaham sungguh la makcik ni.

dari dulu kot mak saya dok cerita pasal makcik ni kt saya.

saya diamkan ajeee. sebab saya tau apela sgt saya ni nak banding gn ank makcik tu.

dr sekolah lagi saya xdpt nak lawan die. die 10a saya 9a je kan.

hmm yelah makcikk.

saya tau makcik bangga dgn ank mkcik tu, tp berpada2 la ye.

jgnla bangga sgt, smpai orang keliling pun jauh hati dengan makcik.

susah nanti.

nak cakap dgn ank makcik tu, alahai saya xkan menang lah.

kecewaaa

sape2 jelaa.

cehhhh (editto)

pergh sume cite carry marks kn dlm blog.
aku pun nk jgk ar.
xpuas ati ni kah kah kah

nah amek amek tengok aku punye plak.
da tengok korang punye puas2 da.

BIO - 24.??/30 highest dlm part1 pharmacy keh3

CHEMISTRY - 31.??/40. among the highest jgk la. tp final paper tadi sng, so, bole dpt a+ ! yeayy

MATH - xtengok. malas. final teruk. malas cakap.

ICT - 27.2/30

CTU - 35/40. ustazah xaciii huuuuu

BEL - 50/60 kot. membe cakap. final 40%. ni pun insyaAllah jgk bole.

PHARMACEUTIC - 21.92/30. among the highest. susah woo nk score paper ni.

dah3 amek ko puas ati. wahahaha bukan nak berlagak tau, saje nak bagi tau pkembangan diri.

last paper aku 14 nov. pija ko abes awl gileee !! grrrr

ade lagi 3 paper. killer paper, pharmaceutic ahad ni, bio next wednesday. adoi adoii

aku balek nnt maybe naek flight or bas ajee. mama xdpt amek. sdeyhhhh.

so, berjuang selagi terdaya. aku nak pointer tinggi !!! amin~~

home

last couple of weeks i was like cacing kepanasan at my college,

missing my home, my family, aqie keh3

my roomate dengar lagu at the loudest volume and i damn seriously cant study.

grrrr sound byk kali sudahh and it was still the same

=.=

i've got my test marks and carry marks before i got home.

tau tak carry mark tu ape budak2? wahahaahah

overall my result was okay and i got the highest marks for bio test 2 and for carry marks.

wuhuuuu tak pernah dlm sejarah bio aku terer kott.

but, my friends seems like they didnt like me much.

because of my voice, or myself, i don't know.

but they make friends with me all the same.

i'm just a human, like you.

surely i'm not perfect as you are right.

i just have few that i can consider as real friends.

duhhh

and one thing that utterly shocked me the most last week,

I'VE GOT AN ADDMISSION TO UIAM PJ.

COURSE = BIOSCIENCE

seriously, why the heck did they gave me the letter when i'm about to finish my 1st sem in uitm?

jeeezzz

time aku wat rayuan arituh xnak plak bagi kann.

grrrr.

all my friends urge me to go there, but i don't really want too.

my life was okay at uitm, i make new friends, i met many people, i can wear what i want to wear as long as tutup aurat, so why bother?

even if i go there, i don't think i can excel. bioscience means i need to study physics right?

urghhh xnak xnakk aku xnk physics.

aku da byasekn diri belajar farmasi daa.

janganlah peningkan kepala otak aku ni.

next wednesday da final exam tau !!

grrr

...

i dont have energy left, so i'll just make this short.

i have fever, headache, flu, cough and sengal2 bdn for 3whole days.

ade symptoms2 h1n1 kn? ish3

i cant study well, i cant sleep well, and i cant eat well.

i have bio test on monday, chemistry on thursday and this fever is bothering me.

grrrrrrr.

my pharmaceutic test is over and i did very badly.

geeezzzz